Burden of Sacrifice

I leave behind my social life,
think that will be an answer to ease it.

I restrain my anxiety,
try become a better girl,
think that will be a key to lock it.

I stop my arguing,
try to cool down my heart,
so I can become a temper and wise one.

I disguise myself,
try to deceive peoples around me,
so they will never see my true vizard,
hence I can continue my life to confront it.

Thus,
I laugh as often as I can,
try to fool my own feeling,
thereat I can forget it easily.

I overlook my surroundings,
throw over no matter what they will say about me,
try to lighten the hole in my heart,
thus I can stay strong.

I give up my routines, try to put it aside,
because of that I can come as soon as possible to my home,
try to comfort the situation,
while hoping I can see a smile though it’s just a slight smile.

I show my best smile,
try to be steadfast one,
therefore I can conceal my tears and make peoples stop to worry.







but…






Why I’m dying inside?