Drawing for My Beloved Parents

I dedicated this drawing with all of my heart to my beloved parents that already give me their love passionately until now.



I remember at that time, my drawing was really amateur, but if I want to see that past time with myself right now, I can say that though my drawing was really amateur, but it fulfilled by warmth and purity, just like an innocent little girl.

I remember too the time when I tried to draw with my best using crayon and I showed to my parents. With a really pure heart I showed them and with smile said
"this is me, this is mommy, and this is daddy"
then I saw them smile even laugh with said
"my, my, this is so sweet dear! You are really a good artist!!!"
then they would pat my head and hug me.

Not only that, recently I watched some videos in youtube that talking about Parents's love. These are several videos:







These videos make me realize how parents really love their own children. I believe in this world, Parents always love their children no matter how bad their children.

Until now I still can feel that moment, their words become my support until right now that can make me stand with both of my own feet to become a better artist.

I love that moment, but I more love my current life right now.
I love the way they raise me as their child. I love them to always support me from the very first time of my memory to begin drawing.

That's why, I'll try my best to be the best girl ever for you.
to can pay back what they already give to me with all of my heart.
to can see they smile once they see me.
to make them proud to have a child like me.
to make them feel blessed to raise a child like me.

I love you, Mom.
I love you, Dad.
Always and forever, until the end of my life.

My Recommended Playlist
~Bunda
~Surga di telapak kakimu
~My Mom is so amazing
~Yang Terbaik Bagimu (Ayah)

Happy Eid 1432H

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1432H.
Minal Aidin wal Faizin. Mohon maaf lahir batin apabila ada kesalahan dan salah-salah kata yg tidak berkenan di hati semua, baik yang disengaja maupun yang tidak.
Mari kita meraih kemenangan-Nya bersama-sama.
Taqaballahu minna wa minkum.

Let Me See Your Smile Again

You smile happily.
I smile happily.

You smile passionately.
I smile passionately.

You smile…
I smile…

yes, You smile, but there’s a pain in your heart that makes those tears fall down.
yes, I smile, but there’s pain in my heart that makes these tears fall down.

You try to smile.
I try to smile.

You show fake smile.
I show fake smile.

You smile slightly.
I smile slightly.

You cannot bear it anymore hence you let those tears keeps falling down.
I cannot bear it anymore hence I let these tears keeps falling down.

You cannot smile properly.
I cannot smile properly.

You smile sadly.
I smile sadly.

You smile painfully.
I smile painfully.

You ask me “why are you crying?” with a gentle smile.
I answer you “because you are crying” with a gentle smile and tears on my cheeks.

Burden of Sacrifice

I leave behind my social life,
think that will be an answer to ease it.

I restrain my anxiety,
try become a better girl,
think that will be a key to lock it.

I stop my arguing,
try to cool down my heart,
so I can become a temper and wise one.

I disguise myself,
try to deceive peoples around me,
so they will never see my true vizard,
hence I can continue my life to confront it.

Thus,
I laugh as often as I can,
try to fool my own feeling,
thereat I can forget it easily.

I overlook my surroundings,
throw over no matter what they will say about me,
try to lighten the hole in my heart,
thus I can stay strong.

I give up my routines, try to put it aside,
because of that I can come as soon as possible to my home,
try to comfort the situation,
while hoping I can see a smile though it’s just a slight smile.

I show my best smile,
try to be steadfast one,
therefore I can conceal my tears and make peoples stop to worry.







but…






Why I’m dying inside?

Sketching

Recently I try to practice my sketching skill~ =w=
these are some of my sketching practice~

Random Girl


Random Guy


Francois Roosevelt (my beloved OC~ ^^)

Dunia yang Tertunda

Huwaaaa~ Ohishashiburi desu nee~
sudah hampir 2 bulan saya tak memasukkan postingan baru ya~ maaf~
kemaren-kemaren sibuk UTS, habis itu pun schedule juga padatnya bukan main~
jadi sulit membagi waktu dan mengerjakan berbagai hal.

Berbicara tentang schedule yang padat dan kegiatan yang berjibun, saya jadi menyadari bahwasanya terkadang bahkan seringkali, begitu banyak dunia yang ingin kita masuki, jujur saya salah satu contoh manusia yang memaksa diri untuk memasuki banyak dunia. Saking maunya ini dan itu, saya mencoba semuanya, mulai dari menggambar (otodidak sih ya), membuat plushies, kursus baking cake, les biola, belajar bahasa jepang, join english debate, jadi cosplayer, jadi soprano di paduan suara mahasiswa, ikut moot court, ikut MUN (Model United Nation) Club, dan sebagainyaaaa~. Permasalahan yang selalu timbul adalah setelah cukup menguasai atau merasa sudah cukup atau bosan, pasti saya berenti dan tidak saya asah lebih dalam lagi (walau ada beberapa yang memang digeluti mati-matian). Pada akhirnya semua itu hanya menjadi dunia yang tertunda. Dunia yang seharusnya bisa berkembang, tapi akhirnya harus tertunda dan berhenti.

Tapi kadang kala, dunia yang tertunda tidaklah buruk. Karena dari situlah, kita bisa belajar mengenal dunia lebih baik, mengenal sekeliling kita, berinteraksi dengan mereka, mendapatkan pengalaman baru, bahkan lebih mengenal diri kita sendiri. Bahwasanya dunia yang tertunda itu dapat melahirkan jiwa baru yang membuka lembaran baru. Percaya atau tidak, sekali kita masuk dalam suatu dunia, ia akan memberikan warna tersendiri dalam diri tiap manusia. Dan seberapa pekat warna yang ditorehkannya itu tergantung dari seberapa besar usaha kita untuk mengeksplorasi dunia itu. Pada akhirnya ada orang yang memiliki banyak warna tapi mungkin tidak terlalu pekat, ada yang hanya sedikit tapi sangat pekat. Tapi bukan berarti perbedaan itu menjadi hal yang patut disesali, karena pada dasarnya manusia akan hidup saling mewarnai antara satu dengan yang lain di tiap dunia yang mereka temui. Karena semua orang itu istimewa, bahkan walaupun dunia yang dimilikinya hanyalah dunia yang tertunda.

Save The Earth

Lately, I realize on how technology already becomes part of our life, though technology already makes many good things, it also has bad things.

Just for our concerns, I know on how earth is already in old age. For me, we can save it, even with a simple way.

For example refill the catridge. Don't always buy new one when the ink is running out. Be friendly to earth, or earth will ask your responsibility at the end.

NATURAL DISASTER.